Reminder:

My friends just left my apartment. Without meaning too they made me feel bad. I fumbled, spilled my coffee and dropped the ashtray that I don't use anymore. It was quiet and all the three of us wanted to do was leave. Even me, and we were at my apartment. Maybe I am crazy?

I just feel as though I am never able to rise to the occasion. You know? It is almost like overindulging in friendship. You can reach a point of satisfaction with your friends and then yes, you should just cut it there. There's this video on youtube: Love In Thoughts. I like the philosophy at the end of the video that talks about the possibility that people are only truly happy for once in their lives and then they are punished for it. That is a very interesting concept. "The punishment is that they can never forget that one moment. That one should say goodbye at the bliss point. (This is all in German, of course.)

Well, I wonder how true that could be. It's certainly something to consider. However, I for one feel that most people contradict themselves and are somewhat incapable of holding a certain opinion for long periods of time. What are we? I mean, how can people vary so much? How can someone have a great multitude of interests and skills and others be very limited? I guess age and exposure...aptitude.

I started writing this yesterday and now I have forgotten what I wanted to remember. I think it was something like..."Stay motivated! Find a good outlet for all your energy! Remember to find a job! To finish your Spanish! To be a good son and a fantastic boyfriend!"
O_O