Lonely lonely That is Me.

Loneliness has been acting up again. For no apparent reason, it's been pervasively finding it's way throughout me. When I say I have no reason, I assume I don't. I'm very unaware. What happened to me? I'm different now. I can't determine if it's good or bad. I just feel really angry about it right now.

Whatever, I'm just upset about things not going as I had hoped. HAha, that was cruel of me. Even at that, I'm not bothered by that. Now I'm sounding like HIM. Questioning my self-worth again? No! I can't do that. That would be to relapse when I've already won and the game has cleared out.

I guess, I slept through my classes today, except for the one at three thirty this afternoon. I have good reason for that though. Yesterday was FUCKING exhausting. I was running on about three and a half hours of sleep. I did so much. God...

Whatever, here's some Feist, because I love her.

What gives, what helps
The Intuition
I'll know, I'll know
Oh, I won't have to be shown
The way home
And it's not about a boy
Although, although

They can lead you
Break and defeat you

A destination known
Only by the one
Whose fate is overgrown
Piecemeal can break your home
In half
A love is not complete
With only heat

And they can tease you
Break or complete you

And in came a heat wave
A merciful save
And you choose, you chose
Poetry over prose

A map is more unreal
Than where you've been
Or how you feel
A map is more unreal
Than where you've been
Or how you feel
And it's impossible to tell
How important someone was
And what you might have missed out on
And how he might have changed it all
And how you might have changed it all for him
And how you might have changed it all
And how he might have changed it all for you

And did I, did I...?
And did I, did I...?
And did I, did I...?
And did I, did I...?
And did I, did I...?
Did I? Did I?
And did I, did I...?
Did I? Did I?
And did I, did I...?
Did I? Did I?
And did I, did I miss out on
You...